Theme for the year

Sayesha, a blogger I greatly admire, has an interesting take on New Year resolutions.

I really liked her idea of condensing resolutions into a single word. This way, even when I proclaim publicly what my resolution is, the details and specifics are only known to me. I can fine tune them as and when necessary. This flexibility may actually make it possible to keep the resolution fresh all throughout the year.

So, I have decided that the underlying theme for the year 2010 in my life will be “rejuvenate”.

This is what I need to do more than anything else:

  • To clear out all the cobwebs in my mind and let the sun shine bright.
  • To break down the walls I have unconsciously built all around my heart/mind and allow people/ideas  in again.
  • To get rid of the melancholy and bring cheer and joy.
  • To stop brooding over the negative things and focus on all the great things that I have in my life.
  • To laugh and smile more than I have been doing in the last few years.
  • To stop crying over the love I lost and realise the value of the love I have.

In essence, I need to bring the spirit there once was, back into my life.

Here’s to a fulfilling, cheerful and spirited year ahead for everyone.

Internal conflict

  • Some times, complex questions have simple answers; at others, even simple questions do not have simple answers
  • Some times, you want to face adversities with a smile; at others, you want to bury your face in tears
  • Some times, you want to take control of your life; at others, you want to relinquish responsibility at least for a short while
  • Some times, you want to isolate yourself; at others, you are desperate for a reassuring hand and a hug
  • Some times, you feel life itself is futile; at others, all your problems seem trivial
  • Some times, you are terrified of what you have become; at others, you are proud
  • Some times, everyone gives up on you; at others, you try hard not to give up on yourself
  • Some times, you want the earth to split open and swallow you; at others, you want to pick up the pieces and start over
  • Some times, you feel you can handle it all yourself; at others, you want a shoulder to lean on
  • Some times, you want to push yourself just a little harder; at others, you want to just give it all up
  • Some times, you are haunted by the past; at others, you only see the bright future
  • Some times, you hold your head high in confidence; at others, you are just broken into pieces
  • Some times, you try to preserve your dignity; at others, you wonder if there is any left
  • Some times, you question your worth again and again; at others, you have absolutely no doubt
  • Some times, years fly by as if they were seconds; at others, every second feels like a century
  • Some times, you feel like you have reached the end; at others, you realise it is only the beginning


  • A disturbed sleep
  • A painful dream
  • A bad morning
  • A melancholic afternoon
  • A depressing evening
  • A phone call
  • A pizza
  • A bench by the lakeside
  • A breath of fresh air
  • An unexpected photo op
  • A dear friend who makes time for you at unseemly hours

Thank God for friends, a day that started bad and got progressively worse, actually ended way better than I had imagined.

A special wish

Yours is a unique mix

You have spent the last years six

Words I have none to say

But I’ll say them anyway

Like moonlight on water

Like fireworks in the sky

Let your love remain tender

Yet let the sparks fly

Like a sunflower in full bloom

Like the fragrance of a rose

May your life be a sweet poem

With the depth of a poignant prose

No words no images

Neither science nor art

Can tell you that for ages

You have been the darlings of many a heart

Things may go right

Things may go wrong

But come whatever might

Your love will go on strong

ಬೆಳಗಲಿ ನಿಮ್ಮ ಮನೆ
ಅರಳಲಿ ನಿಮ್ಮ ಮನ
प्यार आपका रहे सलामत
शादी का सालगिरा मुबारक


An anniversary wish for my dear sister and brother-in-law.

Just some thoughts

  • If you read between the lines, you are too cynical; if you don’t, you are too naive.
  • A simple question does not always have a simple answer.
  • If they were not commenting on, judging or otherwise needlessly intruding  on the private lives of famous people, many would be out of a job.
  • When a wife does a great job of working in and out of the house, it is her duty to the family; when a husband does housework, oh his wife is so lucky!
  • If you believe that people mostly mean what they say and they don’t have any reason to lie to you, you are considered hopelessly naive.
  • How can something be right just because everyone else is doing it?
  • Staying silent when something had to be told and saying something when silence would have served better, are both equally harmful.

Early morning glimpses

When living in a house with a kid, there is always some toys lying on the floors.

This was the scene that greeted me early this morning.


Of ring tones and memories

When I left home for grad school, cell phones were a rarity.  Somewhere during the years I spent away from home, cell phones became a rage. Suddenly everyone had one, and there was this weird phenomenon of changing the numbers every so often.

I had to keep updating my diary, scratching out old numbers and entering new ones, only to get other new numbers. In all this cell phone madness, one thing I really enjoyed was music. When I called some of my friends, instead of a ring sound, there would be a song playing. Although I didn’t call a whole lot of people on a regular basis, there are three people whom I called fairly often and I loved to hear their ring tones.

My brother’s heart tugging Do pal ruka… He has changed it now, but I remember I used to call his cell at odd hours just to hear the song. Got to tell him to change it back.

RS’s lively Ajeeb dastaan hai yeh… He got this song for the sole reason that it is my favourite. He has had it for more than 4 years now. He always picks up at the last ring so that I can get to hear the song.

RC’s evergreen Hume tumse pyaar kitna… He is an avid traveller and most of the times I call him, I don’t get to talk to him, but I still call to just hear the song.

Although I listen to these songs often on my computer, when I call them, there is a special feeling which I cannot quite explain. Thanks guys, for giving me these special memories.